its hard sometimes to say that i am an artist.... sometimes i feel like the stuff i produce is no where near what i would like it to be. there are a million people out there who want to do what i do and there are a million people out there who are younger and better at it then i... so what does that mean for me? i am getting older and not better.... im sure people who are far older then me feel this way.... but i feel like my time has expired i will never be what i thought i was capable of being... i will never be a starving artist who creates beauty out of the chaos that is there suffering life... lol oh well